"The Heavenly Being" first part
by Giorgio Dibitonto

I can define what I described in ‘Angels in Starships’, in the fifth chapter, my first visible experience with Jesus. When I have to say something about him I feel really very little and my voice failed. I confess, without removing anything from the Heavenly Brothers, that is not the same as talking about them. The wonderful beauty of the Lord, the ecstatic state that comes and sweetness of his divine person, fascinate and bring face to face with God.

In those moments my human littleness can not scratch what emanates from Him and inspiring. In him, it sinks and disappears to feel a whole and one re-emerge with a new identity, both human and spiritual. He trensforms everything and highlights all that is good and better in the man.

Jesus, majestic and sweet, inebriates with his light and his love which poured into those who stays in front of him as an uncontrollable spread of a divine life that has no comparison with what we usually experience. “He came closer to me, with an expression of perfect amiability in his gentle smile. My soul felt completely overpowered, and yet it could recognize its true self in him. In his fine, noble face I saw myself, and I felt within myself the pure, all-consuming love that streamed forth from this Being”.

It is not easy to clarify what I wrote above. But I really believe that the God-Man Jesus has the ability to make us feel and experience what the man is in his best part and we complement and refine ourselves. What else could I say that might seem trivial? There are mystical experiences that have no words suitable and more you try to find them and less they are consistent to the experience.

“his radiant beauty evoked a deep sense of peace and longing for goodness and love”. Peace and strength were the things I felt in that moment in a great feeling of sweetness and tenderness. When the light of Jesus invades you and peace and love will come deep inside, you want all of this should not stop and continue to infinity. You are there wrapped and penetrated by that bliss and communion and it seems that nothing should exist. You do not ask anything and it do not seems natural that everything should vanish.

When instead it vanished, you are in the joy of the experience and of how it remained inside, but you have the impression of being plunged back into a dark and deep place. Recognize himself in Him means that Jesus has the capability to act as a mirror, to reflect on us on what we should be in the perfection of the original creative design of God. That picture remains inside and then you feel compelled to walk spiritually to that realization. This do not means that then we will not have difficulties in living on this world, but a new inner strength will help us and will encourage us to pursue that aim despite our falls.

When the voice of Raphael promised me that I would have seen him ‘in a different manner’, I realized that perhaps I would have seen as a human person and not as a light. I was elated and thought it would be even more beautiful and concrete, such as when you meet people in this world.